after numerous problems with my laptop it has finaly given up and died on me...well more likr poof, fuzz black screen and now whenever i try to boot it up it says disk read error press ctrl, alt del to rebootwhatever is wrong disk error sounds expencive =_=; so i'll be taking it to see the computer men next month when i has some moneys =_= though i need the money for xmas shopping too T_T i'll be back to using my old laptop untill them =3= so no more artwork for a while i think...unless i get the scanner sorted out :/

kinda mixed feelings over the damn thing...something like:
you damn laptop why do you have to give up on me now?! if i ever see you working again i'l kill you!! please start working 'cos i need ta get my work done T_T

As the title sugest i have been feeling kinda depressed lately and with depression comes this huge block of blockyness that seems to eat up all my creativity, hence not much artwork for a while. Aparently talking about these things helps though i'm not entirely convinced looking at my mother... i'll try puting it all down anyway so if you would rather not listen to me whine on about various things STOP READING NOW! and for those of you that are just gonna tell me off for being a whiny child well i wont deny i am but i still don't wanna hear it.

ok firstly i have nothing to whine about in the parents category though some of my friends could behave better towords my other friends... no jack i'm not talking about you..and it's not jo either =_=; i'm not going into detail on this because it's a sensative subject that needs carefull handeling..think of it as someone wading through a swimmping pool with some highly reactive metal held high over their head with only their arms and nose above the water.

Second subject! my boyfriend i'll let him get away with his jokes that arn't funny...but recently we havn't spent much time together.
he's also been telling me off for sulking and being childish, which is understandable though most of the time i'm only playing around.
it feels a lot like he just dosn't want me around at the moment like tonight i kept getting hints that i should be going home soon because he was tired...he did kinda look it but all the same it felt more like it was a kick outta the door :/ i dunno maybie it's just me but it seems he's more interested in his games though mom keeps telling me it's just the way boys are at that age it's stil kinda frustrating.So i'm trying to be more mature! i did leave early so he could sleep after not going to my grandmas because he wanted to see me...is it just me or was he encouraging some childish behaviour there by oking me doing that in the first place? 0_o well nemind...i made it out the door still smiling ^^ though i'm not sure he realy belived it :/ i should realy work on looking happy and keeping my emotions reigned in...

ok third subject! college! screw them..they have messed me around so much this year that i want to just hit them all over the head with janas indestructable newspaper!
subject 3.1 ceramics! i'm no good at this...i'm ment to be making a series of 7 dead gnomes but it seems a bit macabre so i'm trying desperatly to think of something else before it's too late... but what the heck can i do with gnomes?? no joanna i'm not doing drunk gnomes. any ideas PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT!! NO JO I'M NOT DOING DRUNK GNOMES XD
subject 3.2 EMA!...no..actualy it's just waaaaay too annoying to talk about..

subject..no wait...i think i just ran out of things to whine about...you know i do feel a bit better...^^

sorry for going on like this and if your gonna whine at me in the comments about me wasting your time then i will remind you that i did say stop reading now in the first few sentances of this journal.

i seem to be going through a phaze of being adicte to neon colours and glow in the dark stuff o_o and also to origionality. i feel like i want my work to be the only one of it's kind... so i'll be starting with cloths ...as soon as i get my hands on a sewing machine anyway =_=;

i might post up some designs before i make them and definatly the end result

thought i would try a new way of colouring things i do digitaly :3

also if anyone wants some free art now is the time to ask ^^ i'll do anything you want drawn digitaly or traditionaly. once i'm more comfortable with my art i may start comissions
nothing big to begin with mind